Tuesday Morning

This evening is the first Flash II class. I am so looking forward to that. I bought a cord for my flash but it is short. Hope it will do until I can get something longer.

This morning the sky was filled with lovely clouds edges lit by the sun. There was a beautiful sunset last evening...I didn't see it here...my daughter called me from her work and asked me if I could. She said it was amazing. We live in an area surrounded on three sides by hills. My only real view is east. I do get to see sunrises in the winter months that rival any sunset.

This house began life as a two room shack with a cobble stone fireplace. Later it was added onto several times. I am in the latest addition...the master bedroom with bath my dad and stepmom had built on. The original house was built of redwood and the first additions also used redwood. The back bedroom was added in 1940 I think. That is Hailey's room now. My dad and stepmom took the dividing wall out of the main house and opened it up to make a larger living room. Then my dad added on to the front porch and enclosed the whole to make a large room for a pool table. He put in a sliding door out to the pool area. The sliding door was put in backward. When we saw that it was worn out and needed to be replaced. We ordered one from Home Depot. E.R. and I put it in ourselves. He did most of the lifting. That was a hard job. Not only that in thirty years standard door sizes changed so we had to do some work on the door frame.

My step mom after my father passed away had the posts taken out and the room truly opened up. She had two large beams installed to hold up the roof. When we got the place that roof was sagging so we put in a large post to hold it up and two smaller posts. Basically putting back the original porch posts. Then made a separate small room out of that area. E.R. stays in that room. We live in a strange sort of peace.

Mostly because of our son David. It is hard to think of David as almost 43 years old. In some ways he still seems like the teenager he was. I read up on schizophrenia and tried to learn all about it. It has been over twenty years since then. When my parents trust was settled I bought this place from the trust to make sure David had a place to live. E.R. had rented the little house from my stepmom after my father passed away. She didn't want to be on the property alone. Her mother moved from LA to live with her. David began staying with E.R. then.

For several years, I was alone at the storage. Just me and my cats and the dogs. The first time in my life that I was ever alone. I found out that I liked it. I took classes at the community college and started painting. Sometimes John was there. When John married, and Lynn was expecting Hailey they lived in a trailer in a trailer park in Lakeside. Since it was our travel trailer, the manager called me and told me to remove it from the park. John and Lynn fought all the time. That is when they moved into the RV storage lot. I had said never! A lot of good that did me. I saw a lot of Hailey as a baby never dreaming that I would be raising her. And then my life would be changing again forever.

Sunday at the Park

We went to Balboa Park this morning for the Flash I class. I really enjoy the classes we have there. Today was learning what our pop up flash can do and also what it can't do. We spent time in the Zoro Garden and then walked over to the Rose Garden. Such a lovely place. Then finished up in the Cactus Garden.

Elizabeth, Cody, Dennis, and Ashleigh went to LA over the weekend for a trip to visit the Museum of Tolerance and a visit to Universal Studios. E.R. is in LA too. He picked up some family members at the airport here and drove them up for a family party then will bring them back on Monday for their flight back. Hailey spent last night with friends and church today so Dave and I were here alone for a quiet weekend.

We had a good talk last evening while sitting outside in the cool evening air. Nice. He has his problems but he has a good heart. A large empty area of Eucalyptus Hills was home to two Mexicans that Dave became acquainted with. They have been moved out by the sheriff's, their makeshift house and possessions destroyed and removed. Dave worries about them. Hard to convince him that they will be all right. Dave has been picking up the trash and removing it from that area for years and collecting the bottles and cans dumped there. He will have to stay away from there from now on.

Passing

Farrah Fawcett the loveliest angel is flying free. Cancer is a tragic way to die. I saw what it did to someone I loved...most of us have. I feel so sorry for the people that loved her. She will be remembered.

The other death in the news is also sad. Sad for his children. The world has double standards. Why should we mourn a known child molester because he is said to be a kind gentle person and a talented performer? We vilify priests that molest children. We send them to prison. Are the victims any less damaged because their molester was someone rich and famous?

It's Wednesday...

Middle of the week and I feel like I'm drifting again. Not in a photo class at present but will start again next week. It is morning and the sky is cloud covered. Hoping it will burn off early. We wake up to cloudy skys and I think where is sunny California? David and I had a nice talk this morning. I enjoy talking with him on good days. My son John turned 40 on Monday. He is my youngest We live in a stressful situation. John is staying in our travel trailer when he isn't up in Valley Center. Elizabeth lives next door with her son Cody and her boyfriend Dennis and his daughter. E.R. and I have been separated since 1983.

E.R. rented the little house from my stepmom and David lived with him most all those years. I knew when I got this property that there would be stresses. Though I didn't know how bad. E.R. and David moved in here with me and Hailey, and Elizabeth moved into the little house. E.R. is at the other side of my house from me thank goodness. Elizabeth and John are not talking to each other. Lots of anger between them. I have to remind them both that they are both my children and that I love them both. So there is a edgy truce. Dave has bad days where he upsets everyone. Getting this place seemed a good thing at the time and maybe it was. We needed a place where David could live and he was already here. It isn't easy finding a place for someone that is schizophrenic. He couldn't live in an apartment or where the houses are too close together. He yells and rants sometimes and it is better to have some space around I miss being in my own house...just me and Hailey.

I lived alone at the storage for several years. Though John was nearby and then when he was first married to Lynn they lived at RV storage in a trailer. Hailey was born in 1994. In the late 1980s I started taking classes at the community college and getting back into painting. I don't mind living alone...so what happened? We make choices and we wonder if we did the right thing. Hailey is happy and she wasn't lost to her father as she could have been in foster care. I love her very much.

Sunday

We had some sun today after a cloudy morning. Hailey and I went to Walmart. She saw her friend Haley and Haley's sister Tyler. Told them that they will have to come over and swim in the pool if it ever gets done!

Here are some photos of the empty pool. The deep end is at least nine feet maybe nine and a half. The shallow end dips down pretty fast and then it just drops off to the deep end. I never saw the pool with water in it. My Dad had it cleaned out and used it for a few years. At the time he and my Stepmom were mad at me. So we didn't see each other during those years. When my Dad moved here the pool was full of gold fish and water lilies. Then by the time we were reconciled my Dad had filled the pool with dirt.

Saturday Evening

Sometimes life sucks...my son David insisted that his dad drive him over to Borrego Springs. Dave has bad spells with his illness and instead of telling him "no" when he wants to leave, E.R. will take him wherever... It began with Dave just leaving and calling from some faraway place wanting a ride home. That was years ago when Dave first became ill. Now he will act up until his dad just drives him somewhere. Dave used to stay gone for months and then weeks. Now it is usually a few days. This time it was overnight. E.R. is over in Borrego Springs to get Dave. And he can't find him so E.R. calls me and rants to me. I stay by the phone in case Dave calls and I can tell him that his dad is looking for him.

Yesterday the sun was shining and I thought that maybe summer was here at last...not so fast. Today it was back to gray skys and June Gloom.

Back in May Elizabeth decided to dig out the swimming pool. My father filled it in back in the 1970s. Then used it as a planter. Later my stepmom planted roses and a couple of trees. A few years ago we installed an above ground pool for Hailey. That was fun and I wasn't worried about it because it wasn't all that deep.

E.R. got a lot of the dirt out with our little loader.

Then when it got too steep for the loader, the kids tried...they had a lot of fun anyway.

Then we got a backhoe and finished the job. The pool was homemade back in the 1950s and is very big and very deep at the deep end...about nine and a half feet. It was painted. It is also very cracked up. So Elizabeth and Dennis are working to patch the cracks and then they plan to sand blast and repaint it.

Summer Vacation

Hailey has been out of school a couple of weeks and for me that feels like I am on vacation too. Not having to get up at 6am! Driving her back and forth in the miserable traffic jams at El Cap! That is my vacation! Also, I am on a diet and lost some pounds at the start of the diet. My system wants to keep the weight so need to add some more activity to my days...move it and loose it...no pain no gain...no pain will gain...weight that is.

Yesterday I revamped my blog page. In '95 I had a web page and added graphics...some roses by making the background color of the roses the same as my background color of my page. I was making computer graphics before I found the web. As soon as transparent background gif files were possible I did the roses again and added a textured background to my page. I learned how to make seamless textures. I started another page for my rose photos and made that one black with red text. Someone wrote to me saying that red was hard for some people to read on black so changed my text to green. Hailey was little back then so once she was down for the night I would get on the computer.

Hailey is probably the reason I turned to the web. I've mentioned this before. I was painting both oils and watercolor...taking classes...then Hailey came into my life. She was 18 months old and that meant a child proof house. Oil paints are not safe for a child and I needed the time to spend with her. I managed a mini storage and lived there so worked at home. So computer graphics was my creative outlet. First with CorelDraw and then Photoshop. I had taken classes in Digital Photography and in CorelDraw too. The Digital Photography class was learning in black and white how to scan and edit photographs. The classroom did have a black and white digital camera and we each got to snap some photos in class...my first time touching a digital camera. I wanted one so badly. I used to dream about the Minolta...I think it sold for about $4,000. When the first low price digital came out...I bought one...I took some photos and then took it back to the store. It was dreadful.

I made a page of country music web site links and called it Country Stars. I made a special background for it and the title with two transparent stars. Right after that animated gifs were possible so made my red stars turn. That was fun because five point stars are not square and I did a lot of adjusting to keep them from bouncing as they turned.

My rose photo began to show up on other people's pages...mostly in graphic collections. Graphic collectors were people that searched web pages and lifted the graphics that caught their eye and then made their own page of these lifted graphics. That didn't make me a happy camper. I found a program that turned my rose photos into class files and made them harder to steal. As the years passed there are fewer and fewer graphic collection sites.

Another Blog

Started another blog earlier this year. So decided I would put the posts here too. Not too many of them so it wasn't hard to do. They are mostly about my photo classes. I will be adding some photos.

My current cameras are an Olympus E-520 and an E-3. I have found that I can use my old Minolta Rokkor lenses on the Oly cameras. I took this one with my Oly E-520 and a 135 Rokkor lens. This is manual shooting. Lately I have been doing less with auto focus anyway. The Rokkor lenses are fast and lighter to hold than the Oly Zuiko digital lenses.

Last Sunday we went up to Mount Palomar and I practiced my black and white shooting.

Posted: 05/12/09 06:46:49

Haven't been keeping up on this...but am back for a few comments on our trip last Saturday to Catalina.

Wish we had a longer time to spend. Had to catch our boat back at 2pm. We got there early and took a taxi drive...a very fast taxi drive in a mini van. The girls and I sat in the back seat and ER was in the passenger seat. The middle seat was empty. The taxi driver wanted to show us the most in the half hour the ride lasted. We did get to see wonderful views of the harbor. I managed to snap a few photos through the window. The driver was a character and talked through the drive while missing people on golf carts and whipping around curves. We learned that he was originally from Guadalajara and that had lived in Catalina over 20 years. We saw a lot in that half hour trip including his house and small garden. He would like a bigger garden! I think he enjoyed the trip as much as we did...maybe more.

These are from our amazing taxi ride. He would pull up at a location and say it was a great view for picture taking and then put the van in gear and take off. These were quickly taken through the window.

After our taxi ride we walked back to the ferry landing. ER, Hailey, and Ashleigh, decided to walk back to town. So I didn't see them again until we met up to take the boat back.

Posted: 03/23/09 19:43:24

Last Friday Jackie and I had lunch in Alpine. Then we drove to the Summer's Past nursery. It is really a lovely place to visit. They have tables and chairs and benches along the pathways and lots of plants to see. They have a waterfall, no photos of but there are always other days...anyway the water fall is part of a stream of water that winds through that part of the nursery. I did get a photo of one of the small bridges that cross the stream. Makes me wish I could have something like that in my yard.

I bought some amaryllis bulbs...pink lady...which is old fashioned and hard to find. My mother grew them, and then later I had a large brick planter at the storage filled with them that I had planted. I meant to take some of the bulbs when we left the storage, but with all the stress forgot. This morning we did a quick trip to Home Depot for some large pots and potting soil. I planted two more roses that I got at Walmart the other day and some lily bulbs. I started planting roses in large pots when I was at the storage. Except for the large brick planter there was nothing. So I filled up the area in front of the house and office with roses in pots. My rose pages are full of photos mostly of those roses. After we came here...while I have lots of space there doesn't seem to be anywhere to plant roses. They are still in pots...

Yesterday it rained and I didn't do my homework for In Focus 3...shame on me. I haven't decided yet if I will catch it up or forget about it. It is a beautiful day today. A friend I've known since college is out from Iowa for a short visit. She moved there last year. We had lunch and then went looking for candy bars. Not just any candy...U-No bars. Pronounced "You Know" they were my mama's favorite and Janey's favorite too. Sometimes they are hard to find and over the years after we would have lunch we would go on a candy hunt hopefully to find U-No bars. Janey says they don't have them in Iowa. Today we got them at the first store we went to and not only they they were buy one and get one free.

Went to pick up Hailey after school and got busy...finally back to finish this and it is now dark out...One thing I did do was take my blur photos for Sunday's assignment. Only got five shots but that is better than none.