Dawn and Sunset

Hummingbirds and Roses

These photos have been posted on pbase, but thought I would add them to my blog. It was a nice day out and I put my Minolta mirror f8 500mm lens on my Oly camera. The old Minolta Rokkor lenses work great with the 4/3rd system cameras. My old film cameras were Minolta. I used my second Minolta for over 25 years. Loved the thing. I was happy that I could use my old lenses on my Oly DSLR cameras. Then added to my trove of Rokkor lenses going on ebay. On of my finds was the mirror lens. When I started checking out ebay the Rokkor lenses were a lot less expensive than they seem to be now. Here are the photos. 

A Visit With Sarah

Sarah and her daughter drove down to stay the night at Barona. Sarah lives in Hemet. Hailey and I met them at  Marieta's in Santee. Wonderful Mexican food. Hailey ate all of her cheese and bean burrito. Then Sarah's daughter left us and Sarah and Hailey and I drove up to Summer's Past so Sarah could take photos. She got some wonderful photos. I took a few photos too and caught a couple of butterflies. It was a great day...though Hailey was a bit bored. She was really good about it all though. I would have left here here at home but David was having a bad day. That seems to happen a lot. E.R. is back east visiting his brother.

Where Were You?

I was still at the storage in Santee. My stepmom, Marlise had passed away the year before, July 2000, and the storage was being sold. I still managed it for the estate and the trustees were not talking to me. I began to manage the storage in 1979 for my Dad. My children finished growing up there. My dad used to stop by to talk almost every day. In 1983 my marriage broke up and in 1985 my father passed away. Marlise and I became close friends. She would come by to talk almost every day and we would go to lunch. When I got Hailey we took her with us out to lunch. Fun times.

The house was old and had been there before the storage was built, E.R. and I lived in the house when our oldest, David, was a baby and we took in Jeff when we lived there. Jeff was our nephew. Later we moved to our own house and we adopted Jeff.

Marlise had open heart surgery in 1998. I drove her to her appointments and then to the hospital. We took Hailey along on the doctor appointments. Hailey was almost four then. Marlise was supposed to get well but they found cancer in her airway...just a small spot. For some reason they decided against chemo. They decided on radiation and a stint. Maybe because she was still recovering from the heart surgery. I put Hailey in day care near here so I could drive Marlise to her appointments. The next two years were total stress. Then Marlise died and my sister turned against me. She was one of the trustees and the other trustee also was a total bitch to me. The first thing they did was cut off my ability to pay bills for the storage and then they both went on vacation. URF! Looking back I don't know how I kept it together. Hailey had gone to day care and then to the kindergarten at Creative Child for over two years. It was time to take her out. E.R. was living up here in Eucalyptus Hills so I but Hailey into first grade at the small school here. It meant a trip up here every morning for us both. Hailey would have breakfast at E.R.'s and then he would drive her down the road to the school. I went back to the storage and coped the best I could.

On the morning of September 11th I got Hailey ready and we were ready to go out the door. I went to shut off the TV when I saw the first tower burning and they said a plane had hit it. I thought it was a terrible accident. Then another plane flew into the second tower. Maybe it was all the stress I had been living with, I felt numb. My mind couldn't process something so dreadful. We had to leave to get Hailey to school. The first thing we did at E.R.s was look at the TV! I thought about my parents hearing about Pearl Harbor on the radio. My young life was filled with war news. I was a little girl when the war was over but people talked about it for years.

As everyone else did, I kept the TV on and saw the people running and the towers falling. Nothing will ever be the same and then again most everything is the same. This country is big and the loss of the two towers is a tragedy that we should never forget. We have been at war with Muslims ever since too and now the US is broke. The US has been broke before. We have been attacked before. We survived. If anything is learned by the loss of the towers and so many lives, and the wars that followed, terrorism doesn't work. It only makes people want to fight back.

Blacked Out

Yesterday was really hot! I drove down the hill to pick Hailey up from school and it was 104 F. That had gone up a degree by the time I got over to El Cajon. Then we drove through Lakeside to stop for some fast food and it was 107. URF! I bought a cup of iced coffee for me. Back home I turned on the TV to watch the Closer. Right in the middle of the drama the power went out. I thought that someone had hit a power poll. That happens on our curvy narrow roads up here. So after a few minutes Hailey, Dave, and I, decided to drive around. We learned from the car radio that there was a county wide blackout. The small stores at the bottom of the hill both closed and couldn't get any ice. Lots of traffic on the roads. We found out later it was because so many people left work when the electricity went out.

We came back home and found a small radio. That kept us updated on the black out. The house was too hot to stay in and even though it was still hot outside the wind was blowing and it was the better choice. We sat in the shade on the front patio. Hailey worked on a project for class. She needed pictures. So she drew them. That kept her busy. It went dark and cooled off. I brought out candles and flashlights and Hailey kept working on the pictures. We talked and the time went by. I told her that she could now say that she had done homework by candle light.

About 9:30 we decided to go in. Hailey started reading using a flashlight. I went to sleep. Then at 12:40 am the lights came on and woke me up. The blackout was over.

A Favorite Place

Yesterday we went to Summer's Past. Hailey, Jackie, and me. I love that place and can always find new things to take photos of. The snack bar was open, but the place was not as crowded as it has become on weekends. We sat and drank some iced tea and then Jackie and Hailey went to the gift shop. That usually gives me some time to walk around and take photos. It was only a little while when they were back ready to leave. I think I've burned them out on the place and they were bored. I did get a few photos and even some while they waited on me to hurry up...though not anything I want to post. Darn.

We had a lovely lunch after in Alpine. A resturant there makes the best BLT I've eaten in years. We sat outside on the patio and the lunch was totally enjoyable. On the way up to Alpine we had noticed a place with cactus for sale and had planned to stop on the way back but both Jackie and Hailey were ready to go home. Naps were mentioned. So we didn't stop at the cactus place...saving that for next time.

Shooting in jpg or raw or Both

Taking photos in both jpg and raw gives a greater choice in processing and in choosing the best version of the photo. The first picture is the original jpg as it came from the camera. I did use the vivid setting. The second photo is the raw version saved in jpg without any other changes. The third photo was processed in Adobe Camera Raw plugin for Photoshop. The photos were reduced in actual size for showing on the net.

Changes

In the years since I took my first computer class at our community college back in 1989 lots of things have changed. In the beginning I just wanted to run the office at the storage with a computer program. My first computer came from Costco, or maybe the store was still the Price Club. Anyway it was a Packard Bell. And compaired to the computer I have now it didn't do very much. It did have a hard drive with 20mg of memory. Wow! For a few years back then, I was alone at the storage. My husband and I had separated years before and my children were grown and out on their own most of the time. David joined the Navy where he he was found to have schizophrenia and he spent some time in the Navy hospital before being discharged. That is a whole other story.

I took an ROP class in commercial design...old fashioned commercial design where we worked with pen and paper...not computers. Other students talked about computer desktop publishing using CorelDraw and when I saw the software for sale at Costco I bought it. That was the beginning of my life with computers. After I closed the gates at the storage I could work on the computer as much as I wanted. As software got better, we all needed better faster computers. My first community college classes were in real estate. I got a sales license but I already had a job running the storage and never got into selling real estate. The beginning computer class was an eye opener. The class had two different groups of students...older people like me that wanted to catch up with this new technology and young colllege students. By the end of the class most of the older students had dropped. I hung in there. The hardest part of the class was writing programs in basic. URF! One student brought in a chewed up floppy disk and told our instructor that his dog ate his homework. The final exam was really hard. One young man turned in his final and left while the rest of us labored on. I answered all the questions and no one else had left. So I took my exam to the instructor. He asked me if I was sure...guess he meant did I actually get through it. I remember telling him that it was a good as it gets. Later when the grades were posted, I was one of only two students with an A for the class. That made me feel really good. After that I took more computer classes and real estate classes and then discovered the art classes. I was having a great time. The most amazing thing happened to me. I found out that I could learn and get good grades in my classes. My child hood had been full of stress. I loved my mother but she was basically an angry person. Then I was shy and going to school was never easy for me. I got through it and even made it to college for awhile but there were many times I would have to read something over and over before I could remember it. Looking back I think it was the total stress of trying to get through my days in some sort peace. I always read a lot.

Then I married a basically angry person and the stress continued. We raised four children, each with their own set of problems. Our oldest was our nephew. Our first child, David, was six months old when our nephew came to live with us. We had a daughter and another son. The years when the children were little were wonderful and fun. I thought my children were perfect and good. My mother had been so angry at my sister and I so much of the time. There were lots of spankings with the hairbrush and yelling. My children didn't need any of that! But the good times never last. My children were faced with the worst drug out there. Meth, when they were still in middle school. It was something I had never heard of and the only thing I could tell them was to not use drugs. Not to try it because it sounded dangerous. They looked at me and swore that they wouldn't use, but they lied. Kids lie to parents. So both our nephew and our youngest developed drug problems. My daughter was one of the lucky ones...she didn't get hooked. David didn't do drugs.

Learning that David was schizophrenic was the greatest tragedy of all. But then my youngest son has had had problems with crystal meth for years and years and that is another tragedy. He is Hailey's dad. He has spent most of Hailey's life locked up...for failing drug tests whenever he got out on parole. He was never guilty of the original charges he went to prison for, but took a no contest plea for a short time in jail and probation. I've gotten off what I meant to write about.

The wall paper on that first computer was the Corel tiger. For some reason I love that photo. So for all these years the one thing that has pretty much stayed the same whenever I get a newer better computer...I use the Corel tiger for my wall paper most of the time.

If you have been to my blog before you will notice that I have changed my design. The picture at the top now is one I created with an early paint program. I did work on it a bit later but basically it is the same as it was twenty some years ago.

My Webpages

Does anyone remember Prodigy? I had my first web page there back in early 1996. When it changed...sold or something, I started a webpage at AOL. AOL would not accept my nickname and I couldn't think of anything so picked dotcombs. Back then we needed a lot of patience to upload files and our time on the site each month was limited. Someone wrote me a strange email mentioning dotcombs and the similarity to dotcom. I didn't think too much about it at the time. I started another page at Netcom...they sold out to Mindspring and I really liked it there...Mindspring became Earthlink. I finally could buy my own domain name and I parked it at Earthlink. I had hoped to get dotcombs.com but someone had already taken it. Probably that strange person that wrote the email about dotcombs. I choose dotcombs.net for my domain name. Over the years I check dotcombs.com and for awhile there was nothing then odd sales sites. When it came up for renew the first time, I looked for it to be up for grabs, but it was renewed. Whatever.

For a few years I had a Geocities account too and kept my computer graphics there...I really enjoyed creating computer graphics. I had started making them before I ever knew what the internet was. I made cute clip art that could be added to envelopes and letters. I already had CorelDraw software...bought at Costco. I took a CorelDraw class.

I had taken a class in what was called back then...digital photography. Digital cameras were not available for anyone to buy...they were thousands of dollars expensive...our class had one to use and it took photos in black and white. I got to use it once and only in the classroom. In class we scanned photos in b/w and used software to change them. We worked in b/w. As a class project I scanned several old photos and made a printed album using the computer. I also took several art classes and in one of the classes we had a Mac with a computer paint program in color. I learned the difference between a computer drawing program like the CorelDraw, a computer paint program, and photo editing software. The instructor let me come in after our class time and work on that computer. My computer drawing was crude and took me forever. I did learn a lot though. Later I bought my own scanner...it scanned in color...and a color ink jet printer.

This is one of the first photo edits I did in color. I printed this as a 7x10" poster.

Original photo

The first photos I put up on the internet were my scanned rose photos. My scanner came with photo editing software. I registered it and when Adobe bought out Photostyler they sent me an offer to get Photoshop at an upgrade price. I have been upgrading PS ever since. All my early rose photos were edited. Graphics on the internet changed quickly. I made gif files with transparent backgrounds and animated gifs.

In late 2001 Hailey and I moved here to an area where the phone lines were old...no fast connections to the web so while I could keep my website at Earthlink I had to find another way to connect to the net. I went on cable. I shut down my pages at AOL too. Over the years I put a lot of stuff on my website. Lots of it forgotten. When Geocities shut down, I realized I hadn't updated my pages for several years. I bought another web site, dotcombs.org, and I started a board for Janee's Photoshop group. She had to give up her board and her Photoshop classes. We did OK for a couple of years and then our favorite member passed away and everything seemed to stop. Most of us moved on to Facebook to keep in touch. There are some nice places on the net to post photos. Webshots, Flickr, pbase, Picasa, are some of them and I have photos at all of them. I don't need the big web site anymore so am going to slowly check out what is there, what I want to save, and by the end of the month the site will be moved...if I keep it at all.

Amaryllis Belladonna

My mother grew amaryllis and took the bulbs with us wherever we moved. They would disappear for much of the year then lush green leaves would sprout up and like green pompoms cover the ground. It was nice to see that green along side of our house in our mostly brown dirt yard. The green would die down and there would be dry brown earth. A few weeks later, like something magical stems with brown pods pushed up out of the dry ground. Soon the pods would split and lovely pink flowers bloomed several from each pod.

I never got some of my mama's amaryllis bulbs to plant and always missed them. Then someone gave me a big bunch of the bulbs with the green leaves still attached. I didn't know if they would grow but planted them anyway. I was managing the storage then and had only a large brick planter for them. They grew but didn't bloom the first year, but did the second. I was a happy camper. I looked forward to seeing the pretty pink flowers bloom in summer. One year my dogs got into the planter and dug up the bulbs. I found some white garden border fencing and put it around the edges of the planter. I forgot to dig up the bulbs when I left the storage. Maybe the new owners would not have liked it...I didn't ask, and I didn't take my amaryllis bulbs. A couple of years ago I found some pink amaryllis bulbs for sale at local nursery. I bought three bulbs and planted them in two large pots. They bloomed last year and now are blooming again. The bulbs have divided too so have more amaryllis this year.

 I told a friend that these always remind me of something from outer space!