Monday, October 5, 2009

HO HO

What is a ho ho? Well I've decided that is what these drug using homeless women that seem to attach themselves to my son are. A homeless ho! He is trying to get his life back together. But he lost so much of it being away because of drugs. That is a nice way to say locked up in the slammer! Anyway he has been staying in my travel trailer. Then I find that he brings a woman home with him...once two of them. I am not the moral police but there is a limit to what I will put up with! They have no place to go he tells me. Like I should feel sorry for them.

Well I have his daughter that I have been raising since she was a baby. Hailey is a nice sweet girl and she doesn't need to meet his latest ho ho! He is very angry at me for insisting that they cannot stay here. I haven't even let one of them...there have been five so far...into my house! And I never will. He says I've embarrassed him when I tell him in front of them to get them off my property. He has tried to use emotional blackmail. It doesn't work. I told him tough!

Drugs take people down. I have been there for my son when he needed it as much as I could. I told him years ago that I would never bail him out of jail or visit him in prison. I took his calls and let him talk to Hailey. I wrote to him and sent him packages. I tried to balance tough love with compassion for my child though he took a path in life I will never understand.

Maybe these woman have or had good families. I don't know. If they do their own families are probably burned out. Or these women don't want to deal with what their own families have to say to them. I have enough on my plate. I'm not taking in strays unless they meow!

As soon as ER gets back from his trip to KY, we are going to clean up the trailer and I am going to sell it.

Friday, October 2, 2009

Chasing the Sunset

Sitting outside and looking east saw a rainbow in the clouds. It must have been raining over the mountains. The clouds were beautiful and I realized that there would be a wonderful sunset out there. I waited awhile and then when it got close to time I drove down the hill to Lakeside. I parked on Channel Road that crosses the basically dry San Diego River bed. A good view to the west to see the sunset.

I started taking photos. Then a car stopped and the passenger in the back hollered at me. I had to turn off my radio to hear her. They wanted to find Hwy 94! They were looking for Jamul. I had to think a bit as they were miles out of their way. They had been on the right road to get there but had gotten turned around. I still got some pretty photos.




Sunday, September 27, 2009

Palomar Mountain

We drove up the mountain yesterday to meet the photo group. Hailey went with me. It was a beautiful day. Since I got the time wrong we had to wait a while. So took these photos in the parking lot.



We walked around the area a bit taking photos and the group went on while Hailey and I waited for them I took these photos of her.




Then we drove down to a place called Doan's Pond. It is very small but we saw people fishing and actually catching some.


Leaving the mountain.


Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Dream or Nightmare?

Someone says let me tell you about the dream I had last night and I think Urf...save me! I woke up after a dreadful little dream...it reminded me of some I had as a child...missing and then running after the school bus...being chased by a black leopard only to have it find every hiding place...being lost and not being able to find my way home...stuff like that. In this dream we were getting ready for a trip to the beach and I couldn't find my camera...I looked everywhere and I just couldn't find it. They were yelling at me to get in the car and I was saying I couldn't go without my camera...

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Saturday Afternoon in Coronado

We visited Coronado near the ferry landing. A beautiful view of San Diego across the bay. The day was a little hazy, still I got some pretty photos.




We were in Coronado with the Landscape Class. I wondered what story this bike told. Later I watched the owner park his bike over the short wall separating the sand from the pavement. Then he went back to the water and dragged a yellow kayak up to the parking lot. He fastened a small set of wheels to the end of the kayak and then tied the other end of the kayak to his bike. I wonder if the truth of it was as good as my imagination...or better than....











Sunday, September 13, 2009

Sunday at the Park

Spent today at Balboa Park. Gail and I walked through the Botanical Gardens and had lunch at the Prado. Was a lovely time and an enjoyable visit catching up. We also viewed the photo exhibit at the San Diego Natural History Museum.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Photoshop

A few months ago I bought PS CS4. One big thing upgrading Photoshop is moving all my plug-ins...and, other than Bridge, I haven't used PS very much lately. So I was stalling on installing. Today I took Hailey to Barnes and Noble...she likes to read and needed something new. So while she was looking through the teen books section I wandered toward the art books...I really don't need any more of those and then I saw the graphics section. There were several books on CS4 so checked them out. I found one I liked and so now I have hunted up my unused copy of CS4 and put it on my computer. There were some things about CS3 that I totally didn't like so hoping those things have been overcome.

I'm looking forward to getting back to Photoshop.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Back to School

Hailey is back at school...she is going to a school at Chaparral in El Cajon. It is not hard to get there...further but really an easier drive. Though I have to drive through the construction zone on Hwy 67. El Cap traffic is a nightmare.

Hailey has a lot to make up. She is a smart kid but angry I think at her dad. He was gone so much of her life. Last year when he came back he treated her like she was a little girl not the fourteen year old she was. Now she is fifteen and he still can't seem to see that things need to be different. He gets angry and she is angry at him. He thinks she is too quiet. Hailey is a nice quiet girl and a little shy. She is who she is. He thinks that she needs to be a more in your face type of personality. He teases her in public and she gets embarrassed.

Since he didn't see her grow up he thinks that I held her back somehow to make her the quiet girl she is. Hailey was in counseling though middle school and turned her grades around. She was failing sixth grade. She was in choir, dance, and then in Show Choir. She enjoyed performing but was happiest in the back row. I tried to get her to try out for choir at El Cap but she wouldn't. It might have made a difference. Now she has a whole year of credits to catch up with. Hopefully she can do that at Chap and go back to El Cap in a couple of years to graduate with her class.

Some people do well under pressure. Hailey isn't one of them. I think her time at the new school will help her a lot. The students get a lot of help and progress at their own speed. I sure had a difficult time getting her transferred. I had to sign her out of El Cap in early July, and they sent her records to Chap. Then nothing happened. So I called them last month. They told me that the counselors there would have to decide if she could go there or not. That I would get a call. Didn't happen. As it was getting close to the start of school, I called them again. Her file was lost on some one's desk. After a couple of calls and making it very clear that Hailey needed to be there, I told them that if something wasn't done she would quit school when she was sixteen in February. They agreed that she could go there. The day we went to sign her in we sat for two hours waiting for a counselor. Part of that time was they were looking for her file again! URF

They get a lot of kids that get expelled from other district schools at Chap...and kids on court supervision and stuff. And that is another problem for John. He doesn't want Hailey at Chap. I would like her to not be there too but I don't want her failing out of school either. And I have a lot more faith in Hailey's character than her father does.

So far she likes it there...she did meet a girl that she went to middle school with...the girl has face piercings. Wonder why people think things hanging out of their faces make them look good. I've seen some at restaurants and had to avoid looking at them or barf my dinner!

Monday, September 7, 2009

Clouds

While taking some photos of my roses the other day looked up and saw this strange cloud.